I have be ripped into pieces
and you ask me what bad you have done?
I have started in the path of healing and you
You come to etch my wound again and again
I don’t know what you are doing is right or wrong
or what I am doing is right or wrong?
But what I know is my heart
which feels like has been shattered into pieces
and is now leaking a potent smell making my world bitter
As you ask what you have done?
I don’t have an answer
For all I ever know that I have been betrayed by my own expectation.
Expectation of respect, kindness, time, and maybe even love.
Love is weird like that
when you have a crush, it is like flying among the prettiest
cloud
no expectation from the other person, it is chill
But when you tell them, you start expecting things from them
You probably tell yourself that you will not have any expectation,
but you know in your heart that you are dying to hear from them.
I wonder if it is even possible to love unconditionally.
I used to think I loved unconditionally, but when you feel like you are not wanted, or more so you feel like you have become chore in someone’s life it is time to dip I guess. I always think respect is more important than love. But what the hell do I know?
To be honest, I wanted to write about how the world in doing, but I have written about the bitterness of my life. I miss writing. I tried to sit down and write about my end of a relationship before, but it stirred such bitterness in me that I couldn’t deal with it. It has been a little more than a year. The bitterness is not for the other person, it is within me. I am not sure why, maybe it will be over with time. Don’t worry, I don’t let minor bitterness, kill the kindness in me hahaha.
Please forgive my way of writing, some spellings might even be wrong.
We will deal with other crap of life later.
souvenir 