space high

i am among the trees today
the air i am breathing is full of mist
wet
as if the oxygen itself is liquid here
my eyes are green feels rough
real
i push the tree branches trying to clear my path
they are all over me
they are making every excuse to touch me
did they miss me
or did i miss them
it doesn’t matter
all the dew falling over my skin
this place is taking over me
it is winning me
it is showing me its pride of winning
show off
making me joyous
making me dance without any shame
the wet soil in between my toes yet i feel like i am flying like a bird
like the vibrant bird that just flew by me
where are you going
take me with you
introduce me to your kids
make me your family

let me live here
forever
teach me to be strong like your trunks
soft like your flowers
light like your leaves
teach me to be like you
to let go how you let go your leaves when the time comes
to welcome new bud as it comes
make me a tree
can i be a tree

i am not sad
i am looking inside
inside honestly
maybe the trueself
can i even ever

oh mother nature
i feel like i can communicate with you
feels like you can sense my presence

slowly i am fading into this forest
it feel like i live among these tress now
i am home to the immigrant birds
oh the beautiful hatchlings
i shall babysit
your mother is bringing food

my ears ringing
did the mother bird arrive?
no
my ears ringing
oh stop
the mist in the air is dissappering
oh no the stale air
did the mother bird arrive
i have to babysit
i can’t leave
oh stop
my ears ringing
my ears ringing
the dews left my skin

my eyes are blasted with colors
they are causing strain
oh
i am still on a tree but a different form
she has lost her soul
she is dead
i am on top of her exactly like her
do i feel her more
or does she feel me more
did i kill her

i will always be among trees
just different forms
just alive or dead

i am among trees today